Could this be goodbye...?

30/10/09, 11.45 pm

Dear self,

What I did to you yesterday, was wrong, I know I was wrong.
And I promise to never hurt you again.
And you will feel no more pain that I cause.
But listen, you one day will shiver on the floor, screaming for vengeance in alarming rates of death.
And then you’ll wake up.
And you will feel your soul choking.
And you will feel its hate, more and more as the beat goes by.
And it won’t stop until it hurts.


31/10/09, 01.59 am

Dear self,

In the end,
you deserved the best and the most beautiful
and I could never be like this.
And you said
I was your life.

But I don't want this life for you.