Angel of mercy, how did you find me...?

-I don't care how much of a big word it might sound, but I will say it: I'm not changing you. I love you, and I wish you were here now...

-It doesn't sound like a big word, not at all... Not for what we have.

-... (nervous smile)

...one of those smiles I make when I'm thinking of what we've been through. All those things you would do to me, those things that made my stomach toss and turn like the sea...

I remember being in the bus, on my way home, and thinking of the moment that you kissed me in the elevator because then I felt something in my stomach and got so angry with myself because I knew that it meant I was hung up on you but I didn't want to believe it because I knew it wasn't true, although somehow I knew that it was... And I recall so many things we've lived ever since we met, every day that goes by and I'm feeling so happy and so weird at the same time because although it has only been like a year, it feels like ages, and sometimes I wish I could re-live all of this but I know it will happen, someday.

For the time being, I'm grateful to have you in my life.