"Crave"

I want to sleep next to you and go and do your shopping and carry your bags and tell you how much I love being with you,but they keep making me do stupid things.

And I want to play hide-and-seek and give you my clothes and tell you I like your shoes and sit on the steps while you take a bath and massage your neck and kiss

your feet and hold your hand and go for a meal and don't mind when you eat my food and meet you at Ruby's and talk about the day and type up your letters and carry

your boxes and laugh out your paranoia and give you tapes you don't listen to and watch great films and watch terrible and complain about the radio and take pictures

of you when you're sleeping and get up to fetch you coffee at midnight and have you steal my cigarettes and never be able to find a match and tell you about the TV

program I saw the night before and take you to the eye hospital and not laugh at your jokes and want you in the morning but let you sleep for a while and kiss your back

and stroke your skin and tell you how much I love your hair your eyes your lips your breasts . And sit on the steps smoking 'till your neighbor comes home

and sit on the steps smoking till you come home and worry when you're late and be amazed when you're early and give you sunflowers and go to your party

and dance till I'm black .And be sorry when I'm wrong ,and happy when you forgive me and look at your photos and wish I'd known you before and hear your voice in my

ear and feel your skin on my skin and get scared when you're angry and your eye has gone red and the other blue and your hair to the left and your face oriental

and tell you're gorgeous and hug you when you're anxious and hold you when you're hurt and want you when I smell you and offend you when I touch you and

whimper when I'm next to you and whimper when I'm not and dribble on your breast and smother you in the night and get cold when you take the blanket and

hot when you don't and melt when you smile and dissolve when you laugh.And not understand why you think I'm rejecting you and wonder how you could think I'd ever

reject you and wonder who you are but accept you anyway and tell you about the tree angel enchanted forest boy who flew across the ocean because he loves you and

write poems for you and wonder why you don't believe me and have a feeling so deep I can't find words for it and want to buy you a kitten I'd just jealous of because

it would get more attention than me and keep you in bed when you have to go and cry like baby when you finally do and get rid of the roaches and buy you presents you

don't want and take them away again and ask you to marry me and you say no again but keep asking anyway because though you think I don't mean it I do always have

from the first time I asked you and wander the city thinking it's empty without you and want what you want. And think I'm losing myself but know I'm safe with you and

tell you the worst of me and try to give you the best of me because you don't deserve any less and answer the questions when I'd rather not and tell you the truth when

I really don't want to and try to be honest because I know you prefer it and think it's all over but hang on it for just 10 more minutes before you throw me out of your life

and forget who I am and try to get closer to you because it's beautiful learning to know you and well worth the effort and speak German to you badly and Hebrew to you

worse and make love with you at three in the morning . And somehow ,somehow communicate some of the overwhelming ,undying ,overpowering ,unconditional,

all-encomparing -enriching mind- expanding -on-going-never-ending LOVE I have for YOU..